Blogging to clear my noggin

yes i began the week on a bad start. my boss called me in n told me i’m the top user in net usage.. aka.. net abuser.. so it’s a criminal offence to use msn during work.. sighh.. morph to puppy dog look and apologised.. yada yada..

yeap so my hectic week in work continues with even less distractions since its criminal to use msn during work. sighh.. some how the load seems heavier n there is no room to rest..

met up w jerry on monday.. updated him about our latest happenings in our lil church community. he is doing well himself. promoted and w some1 special. grats to u man brother..

nothing’s happening.. in this non-transistent part of my life.. as i want things to move but nothing is working.. *crud*

*jus sianz*

hey guys, sorrie for the emo outburst the last blog.. sighh after all the pent up feelings, it’s like a dike having too much water and it’s been burst open..

but den again, i really haf to thank for bunch of frens.. for making my weekend a fruitful one.

met up w jacqueline one of my close female frens for some dinner. yeap.. seems quite weird tt she is always there to hear my bad stuff.. but den again, it’s been ages since we met up and that wuz really good. other than meeting the rest last week. it’s quite uncanny.. maybe god knows im depressed and let me meet so many ppl to make me feel better.. supposed to meet ambrose to blade on sat which he did not meet.. in short he flew my kite… but i met up w miaoz.. my poly fren to blade in the early morning. her bf overseas and she had to blade.. im more of a last min resort? lol.. juz kidding.. aniwae it wuz lucky tt i did not meet am coz it rained real bad in the afternoon.. so, yea.. bladed in the morning to abt early afternoon.. and went back home to enjoy the cool weather and take a nap.

woke up to darryl calling me out to car show 2006. which wuz nt too bad.. lots of sights and sounds to distract the mind. i prob took more fotos of engine’s more than cars and girls.. yeap.. dinner wuz at new york new york @ the citylink mall. my food wuz good but scott’s grub sux. so dun order the spag w giant meatballs.. suck totally. but my spag mushroom w pork chop wuz good. yea..

ended the nite at father flanigan’s w some draft beer. the only draft i will actually enjoy taking. kilkenny’s.. really nice beer. aniwae, full and sleepy, toddles home..

tml’s main event probably will b the dinner for my mom’s bdae which is on the 13th nov. which also happen to coincides with a fren of mine.

yea.. happie weekend though had a sad week but hopefully things will lighten up. gotta gear up for a presentation on monday for work.. sighh.. o well..

*jus recovers*

hey u all.. juz posted like last 3-4 days ago.. yea yea.. sue me for spamming.

my knock on the head turned out to b a big bad bruise with no hope for recovery.

it’s v ironic, i’ve counselled my best bud abt his problem n yet i’m falling into the same death trap as him..

with all tt to say,  i felt a knock on my head and scolded.. but the fault is none other than mine. call me a hopeless romantic but due to my fantastical imagination, i let my heart rule my head too much. logic i did not use and threw rite out the window so.. sighh.. it’s been a while since i did’nt use my head and regretted the fact i did’nt so..

hahaha.. the fact is i’ve screwed up big time since day 1.. a walking misfit, a toddling calamity.. shld haf took more time, shld haf hold back when i shld.. too many should haf’s.. in e end, i do not deserve to counsel u my brother am.. coz i too haf erred unfortunately..

but still life still goes on, i cant stay emo forever, if i could turn back time, i’d bide my time.. if the future still holds for me someday, i’d learn from this mistake. did’nt know how much a pest i was till it struck me so hard..

a many big thanks to my frens.. the unholy trio since p1 we stood so, my close frens also.. even if things dun go the way it supposed, i’m glad it happened so i can learn more and grow.

my work too also crapped up.. the influx of orders and fouling up for accuracy is starting all over again.. my life has juz continued it’s downward spiral after the short fantasy break.. =)

*jus down*

hey u peeps.. this weekend is a revelation of surpises. well.. where shld we start.. ok.. thurs met up w my ccd ppl and has a blast.. me, darryl,diana, her bf ad and jac. well.. 1st thing 1st.. the turkish foos there really suck. n my frens look really… *ahem* different.. tt’s it jac! if u are reading this, ya coming blading w me really soon!!.. i insist..

fri prob wuz a nite of revelation for me. not much activities on tt day bah.. met up w ben and gs for some chinese makan at chinatown.. the grub at soup resturant really roxs man!.. simple fare but really good.. chicken, prawn tofu and the soup.. to top tt off had really nice desert at temple street further down. milk pudding, peanut paste and mango with pomelo and selasih.. really full but happie tummy today. but the revelation wuz the dialog w a shocker.. aniwae, i had a really long convo and it got pretty messy. seize the moment i guess.. and let the big guy up there do the rest. slept at 4.30am feeling troubled.

sat is concert day for me.. but 1st met up w my poly fren hanni for some burmese lunch. not too bad.. at a burmese temple in balestier.. happy bdae babe.. then after accompanying her n her fren to the sinseh, headed down for concert.. nothing really interestingg happening but rather the performance wuz not too bad for 2 pieces.. oregon and alvamar overture.

yea sun.. so now i did my usual thing, church and met w my ochibi.. aka my lil brother for some arcade playing.. n went off to meet ally for some dinner.. well totally bloated and had an interesting nite. thanks babe for the dinner recommendations.. more good food picking to come.. =)

kinda feeling bit helpless now tt i cant change the situation im in. but nevertheless in e end i leave it up to fate.i really want this to work out but knowing tt maybe the answer is not wad i want makes me v low. maybe juz let my actions do the talking and let the truth prove itself. im determined to make it work out if wad u are thinking abt though.. lol..

pray hard for me guys.. que sera sera.. wadeva will b will b..

*jus down*

hey u all.. it’s like 0045 in the morning and i’d due to wake at 0630 but wad e heck, got outta bath n my hair is still wet.

this week is a load of meeting up w frens. last weekend had my last alummni pract for a concert due next week. playing 2 songs only but it’s quite fun to play..

monday met up w yin, cresa and chee yong as wuz yin’s bdae recently.. the madd ppl the whole lot. aniwae cresa gg overseas for work.. ciaoz babe.. enjoy az.. it’s definately better than crappy sg.

today is a more sombre mood as i met up w a close female fren for a chit chat session cum dinner. the thai food wuz not too bad & i wuz in the midst of good company. but still, it’s kinda sad hearin things abt nice ppl always being bullied..

kinda unfair treatment to hear wad happened. but sadly i only can leave it at there. n i deserve the particular person privacy and all..

tml work’s in batam.. argh!!.. the agony.. n thurs im meetin my ccd peeps for a high sch reunion.. lol.. not really la.. juz di, jac, darryl n charles at arab st for some dinner n shisha!!…

*jus tired*

hey peeps.. juz got back from batam for my deepa-raya getaway and i’m feeling all sore and tired!!..LOL muz b weird to hear that since going for holidays makes u all refreshed and all but still.. i had fun and enjoyed it.

i will prob cut out all the details and dive in straight into the skinny.. batam is not a place i’m totally alien with. my company always despatch us there for work @ our sister company. but i wuz not there for work this time but rather for some fun w my 2 other church frens darryl and scott..

the  main highlights for the trip muz b prob the spa, seafood and go karting!.. never had a chance to go for a proper spa and the experience wuz totally relaxing!.. scrubs and massages and the hydrobath.. came out of the spa totally refreshed.. and nooo.. nothing else other than the spa i had in there.. for all the weirdo fellas who think we did anything else.. =) much cheaper than if u had it in sg also..

seafood.. i missed out on a good crab fiesta w am n his frens last week and intended to make it up big time!.. had pepper crab, fish, chicken, sotong, prawns and fried rice.. for abt 60k rupiah.. which totals to abt less than 20+ dollars for 3 pax?

i muz give special mention to the go karting.. i totally enjoyed it even though it left me w my sore back and sides and my grazed hand.. however, it could haf been better if we could choose the kart to be in. rather than adapting to the kart which we had 3 different karts for 3 different races.
smashed thru 2 barricades as the releasing the accelarator made my kart go faster and my brakes had to be depressed real hard to work.. -____- ‘ ‘ ‘ tt wuz for the 2nd race.. but still, playing arcade too much made it really gd/bad in a way for me.. i shall not eleborate on that but the feel of zipping thru the track chasin and catching up w ppl really makes the pain all worth while.. a muz go if i haf another opportunity.

together in all spent abt 300+ bucks for everything in this trip, n the result? enjoyment all e way. prob will edit to post up some pics from the trip as i gotta get the pics from darryl.. so aniwae, now at home.. w 1 more day to rest n work the rest of the week.. darn..
*jus sore*

the haze goes on n on.. n it’s ruining my blading outings.. dammn..

the weekend wuz completely spoiled by a bad fri the 13th. wuz totally cheesed off by some moronic colleague of my best bud whom dissed me, him n a female ex-colleague of his which is kinda kewl.. aniwae.. i believe u guys shld hear how tard-ish he is.. (lol.. i borrow ya lingo gab.. )

it all started coz i went w my fren also am’s ex-colleague to buy stuff for another fren’s bdae. well.. i went w her coz i got a gd fren in the inline skating industry n i got a serious gd lobang for them.. =)

aniwae, went for dinner where i bumped into the tard.. n his fren where he tried to make a fool of me n my fren. bad move though.. he totally screwed i guess.. so he prob took revenge by taking to start an office gossip in his office abt me,am and her.. anything gets me more pissed abt dissing me.. is dissing my best bud and an innocent bystander.. even had the cheek to place bets on it.. like so childish and immature.. 17 yr attitude on a 20++ something adult.. tsk.. who also tried to ask my bank account to wire me $5/- totally  -_____- ‘ ‘ ‘

well.. i dun haf to say the end or the details but he prob died face down from the verbal assault.. as my air force frens would describe me as a verbal assault specialist.. lol.. of cos minus the bad language.. aniwae.. he is a real asshole.. simple as tt.. n prob bit off more he could chew..

yeap.. so aniwae my friday wuz also spolit coz i did not haf the mood to do anything after tt.. n meet w am for some discussion.. late into the night where trashing and resolving happened yet again..

sat.. dota w my poly mates.. not too bad though a short while. back to poly for alum pract and met darryl, my close church fren for some drinks and also to plan our holiday getaway in batam from the 20th -23rd of oct.. (deepa-raya season)..i seriously nid a getaway from it all man.. *awaits*..

i guess sun wraps it all today as prob church and out dinner w the unholy trio of the 17th yr frenship.. me, am n darlie.. and sat n chat abt the situation till 11++ therefore which brings me here on my com bloggin.. for your into.. do not drink hazelnut ice blended from coffeebean.. really.. is a HAZElnut blend.. no taste n kinda smoky like the shit haze tt prevented me from blading and also making my incessant cough come back w a vengance.. sighh.

it’s like a bad aura for every1 now.. so many frens around me, getting bad news. whether it’s problems w ppl or work.. the wind always travels and like the haze ard, it’s getting real smoky and irritating the hell of every1. to all the troubled 1’s out there, yes.. we all are misfits in a highly stressed environment.. so juz gotta pull up our socks and stick in there.. even how screwed up it may b..

*jus tired*

hey guys.. my weekend was alright but dampened by the thick haze.. still stuck to my guns and bladed on a sat.. with the looming thick fog.. juz got back from dinner.. good sashimi always take my mind off things..

but return to work wuz a real bummer.. incidentally i wuz supposed to do OT on sat but due to miscom, i assumed i did’nt had to come back. but then, when i got back on monday, realised my colleague came back to work n fixed my errors.. n he stayed in office on sat from 8-4.. OMG.. like shit.. so guilty man. but wad can i do abt it when it’s alreddi done?
the worst is when my boss called me in n questioned abt the errors i make.. sigh.. mebbe im not cut out for this job.. it’s like i try my best but it’s nv enough.. precision wuz nv my thing.. mebbe..

juz c how things work out again bah.. arghh.. not promising but still muz strive on.. told myself at least 1 yr in here while all my frens told me to quit but still.. juz to find out..

*jus depressed*

i overblew my budget.. but den again.. it’s worth every cent..

fri nite went out w am for a free movie.. ok.. not exactly free.. but much cheaper.. but den again this choice of movie not exactly good. miami vice.. yea.. i proudly proclaim it the use handphone campaign show.. so boring lor.. w only a few good action sequences.. well.. at least we were in good company.. w his colleague nic n her fren.. =)

today went w miao to ECP to look @ new blades. been complaining abt my roces 5th element for sometime. coz it’s real bulky n heavy to lug along to blade. but it lasted since sec4.. 6-7 yrs ago.. yea it served me well and it’s a great pair of blades. but aniwae looking for a lighter, faster pair.. parted w a considerable amt of cash for a pair of hockey blades.. like comparing a tank(my previous pair) to a fighter jet.. too fast!!!… waaaaa!!!!!… n light.. guess i’d b spending some time to break in the blades n getting used to control the speed.. more excuse to go ECP n zip down to n fro.. thanks alot to aloy for helping me w choose the killer pair.. Mission 7500.. woot.. me n miao left happie n pockets considerably lighter.. really difficult transisting sia.. too used to the stability of my red brick tt new swift black lightweightness w swiss bearings n 80mm wheels makes me unstable but freaking scary fast… good challenge for my bored out life to do something worth it. juz as well also.. did some maintainance on my old pair and realised tt the bearing has been bent in.. too violent perhaps? oww.. and the tongue of the boot has a severe cut.. no wonder my legs been aching when i strap it in recently.. uncanny but maybe forseen tt roces giving way so i got 1 b4 something really bad happened to the old pair?!?!.. divine providence.. =)

so my sun wuz also spent blading!.. lol.. ben n my bro n few others went cycling while i took my blades for a test run again. my bro got a free bike from his fren.. lol.. so it’s means we both got new set of wheels..  learnt the proper way to lace it up from the shop i got it from.. i’ve been doing it wrong all e time.. -____- ”’

o well.. at least i’m informed now..

yea.. juz had to blog to exclaim my new purchase.. ani 1 up for blading in ECP anytime soon?

*jus flies*

oww oww.. my rump.. my rear end.. as i sit and type.. my grazed hand rub the wood of my table and bruised knee caps cross each other as i wince at the lack of cushion of my seat. this weekend is a blast!.. friday wuz out w my best bud am. yeah.. good way to start the week w my partial brokeback buddy as he finds plans and tactial w his newfound target.. 1up for AM.. 0 for gd ole me.. o well.. yeah.. so sat.. alummni band pract ended w an impromptu LAN session w a new bunch of dota khaki’s.. 5 guys n a girl.. not wad ya think.. but yea.. dota.. in my opinion female gamers totally rox man.. *respect* n she is not too bad.. in 1 hero at least.. lol.. *makes mental note to jio am* more LAN sessions for the alummni band dota club.. hahahaha.. now.. the reason y im battered n bruised and pretty much sore all over.. sun, after church went w the bunch of server guys to a vegetated place for sun, sand n loads of mud and many mosquitoes.. learnt it the hard way but not stable yet.. yeah.. riding a bike.. ok ok.. stop luffing u punks.. i immediately learnt how to blade b4 i even hopped on a bike. blading is like 2nd nature manz.. lol.. okok excuses.. i will cycle!!… it’s a fun day manz.. brotherhood to the max as i had difficulty w my heavy bad which i brought and i had difficulty learning cycling.. ben shared a double bike w me.. so sorrie ben for all the trouble and thanks u all for the support.. hahaha.. wif frens like these, i feel much better.. hahaha.. maybe better w other things.. *ahem*.. lol.. okok juz kidding.. yea.. how i got my bad bruises.. learning to cycle and i cant go slow, my balance w tilt.. so i went pretty fast.. and went down slope.. bad move.. but still cant stop.. so got 1 bike on the left n on the right n i cant stop.. too nice to bang into ppl.. i swerved.. hit the brake.. stopped and for 1-2 secs in totally limbo mode.. and fell into the bushes in a hole .. w my legs sticking in the air and ant’s on my hands.. lay there for 5 secs.. reeling in aftershock.. and yea.. got up.. saw my "nice" fren w a camera.. -_-”’ and dmg control after tt..used to falling though.. learning how to blade wuz not a bed of roses.. but it’s a long time since i fell so bad on wheels.. i stopped falling on blades long time.. unless i did something crazy or helping some1 in the process.. yea.. so good weekend for me.. im gonna ache so bad tml at work.. sob.. when will the good things come?!?!.. o well.. live to tell the tale and intend to make it a good 1.. *jus aching*