Blogging to clear my noggin

hey u peeps.

today was the election day for my church organisation where i finally stepped down after 3-4 years of committee handling. still going back to the place i used to know and still know i guess. juz on a different level only which is good. 15 yrs in it and prob wondering how much longer will i go. hmmm..

looks like the year started off with a big move on as my whole dept switched floors from the 2nd to the 3rd floor. one floor higher away from the danger zone which is the CEO office on 2nd floor but not any better for me as my boss is directly behind me. which also means he can see wad im doing behind the com. -___- ”’ great..

started on a slightly bad note also as the CEO seems to b targeting me. i mean in which company the CEO so wu eng to go ard and try to catch ppl.. geez. prob im juz unfortunate or maybe juz plain sway he always seems to catch me at the wrong time doing the wrong things which makes me seem like a constant trouble-maker. but den again the environment where i am now is so taunt and uncomfortable tt i feel like im in a prison with no walls. no freedom to do anything but the work in front of me.

gotta get a move on.. this year better not b like the last. i would like to look back on the year and proclaim i made a difference for myself this year. be it work or rship or juz progression..

less negativity and more move on i guess.. ganbatte to wadeva happens.. SIM n driving n less procastinating.

*jus moves on*

happy 2007 to everyone and wishing everyone the best of luck for the upcoming year. my christmas celebrations wuz alright and the week after tt wuz not so fab at work as mentioned in my previous post.

however, the end of the year 2006 ended on a sad note as one of my resident priest in my church passed away on the 29th of dec. noticeably one of the longest staying parish priest forr 33 yrs and resident priest for 37 yrs. may the good lord take fr carlo ly to a place where suffering and pain does not exist.

always the patient and quiet one who singlehandly made the parish of queen of peace to what it is now, fr carlo seldom pushes ppl and yet able to get his way across with so much reverence from the rest of the community.

spent most of the holidays in church in overnight vigil on the 30th dec and 1st of jan. however took a short reprieve away from the reflection in church to go out to east coast for the new year eve countdown. so crowded all over singapore but had a smashing time chilling out which ended at me at my fren’s place to play console game.. (nintendo wii).. lol..

as the usual work routine begins tml, who knows what tml brings? how would the year treat me? hopefully unlike the past year which i felt wuz not a good year for me, sincerely hoping more pleasant changes and more productive inputs for the year ahead.

*jus exhausted*

hey u all.

how wuz ya christmas celebrations? well.. this week was a bad week at work. actually recently at work, alot of silly rules and regulations was imposed which made my life v difficult.. for example.. no usage of fone during work hrs.. no smsing or calling, no  surfing of net during work and no eating in anyplace except the canteen at all times.

so constrained!!.. i dislike the environment here as it is but this is taking the cake. this is worse than army.. sighh.. so if i use my fone during work, it will affect productivity rite?.. so i cant use fone during work, wad happens if an emergency crops up at home.. it’s so dumb.. rules are made by people, so people has the right to change it if it is unreasonable.

to make matters worse, my boss dun make things better. got scolded twice by him in this week. once when i checked my fone.. checked for coast clear and checked.. next, my boss scold me for playing ard in office and the CEO was watching.. i thot i checked?.. turned ard to see the CEO looking.. and like the way it started, it ended, my boss n the CEO turned away n moved away.. like some dammn conspiracy like tt.. 2nd time is gonna knock off time.. checked n sms back at like 5.28pm.. my boss saw and scolded me for reducing productivity time.. -_-”’.. i’m like gonna go home lor.. really crappy..

o yea.. my dnd.. had it last tues.. at shang-ri-la hotel. not too bad.. food wuz little but the emcee wuz not bad.. not much, did not win anything during lucky draw. pretty much expected.

aniwae.. had it to here in office.. juz gotta sit it out n see if it’s worth my effort. minimum of 1 yr in here.. well.. other than tt.. everything is so so.. met up w su during the week and ally later..

as the year passes by so fast, feel disappointed in the year tt is gonna pass and praying n hoping for a better year ahead. nothing much had changed in the way i want it to b.. work not so proficient and good as expected and the rest is juz self-explainatory. sighh.. concentrate and push on.. ganbatte!!..

*jus tired out*

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!..

yep.. juz woke up from a long nite out w the guys in church.. but yet it is beginining to look alot like christmas this year? i wonder as i sit alone at home now blogging away.. -_-”’

this week been quite a hectic week at work. but met up w a few ppl to make it more evenful. watched eragon on monday w a few old frens and a funky priest.. lol.. met up w my best bud’s and good female fren for some kopi and catching up.. and of cos some good fashioned LAN during the week..

so yep tried to get in the mood by being touristy and take some nite lite fotos but it prob only kicked in at home on christmas eve.. had some dinner w my family and a simple but nice dinner at that and went to church for christmas mass..

in e end christmas is a season for get together w ya family and frens.. no need for big crowded parties or mass head banging. rather like days of the old where ppl sit around the fireplace in front ot christmas tree sharing good times w one another. that is the true meaning of christmas.. in my opinion that is.. n of cos enjoying each other’s company.

felt bit cheesed tht my relatives failed to plan anything on such an evenful day which dampened my mood a bit today but still will try to make the best of it..

back to work tml?.. n a dnd coming up.. n as we leave 2006 behind soon.. a wish on christmas day.. a season of sharing n love.. that 2007 brings a better year ahead.. =)

*jus ponders*

hey u guys.. back from my annual server’s retreat. haf not been attending it due to commitments w army last 2-3 yrs but now marks my 15th year in my church organisation.

things was real swell in the camp.. went to ubin 2 times to experience the sun, sand and loads of madness.. away from the work, women and juz feel the energy of 30+ kids wuz well worth the leave taken even though i’m even more shacked out b4 i took my leave at work.

suddenly my indecisiveness juz went away in this camp and decided to move on in my life. the server’s will always b an essential part of my life as it made me the person i am. if without all the effort and energy for this, i would b even less the person i am.

things may change and life may still go on. but then, the memories will still stay w me.. as i turn to the future, prayer is always impt 2 all of us despite wad religion u are or wad goal u seek. joining the old bunch circle does not mean i leave.. rather still in the circle of brothers but not in the middle making things go around.

still would think abt how the rest of my life will turn out but den again, not tt i can control it as wad i want it to b. but without even trying, i will not even know.

aniwae.. some pics to make it all worth while.

the attendance at e end of the camp.. abt 40++ ppl..

the "feeling" at commitment ceremony on the last nite.. lovely and totally surreal..

the planning commitee exco 2006.. totally honoured working w such talented individuals..

*jus shacked out*

hey ppl..

this week has been dedicated to the planning of my annual church retreat in which starts tml all the way to.. 15th of december.. took leave juz for tt.. n my boss gave me the look.. U? GO CHURCH?.. geez.. like 1½ mths ago..

so this week.. mon,tues meetings.. n weds wuz a practice w juz me n the leaders.. n i totally enjoyed myself conducting it. juz seeing the kids totally motivated made me happie.. 1st time being totally at peace in a very long time.

n yesh.. i finally got a digicam.. at a good price.. panasonic lumix fx07 for $530.. basic package.. n no regrets.. leica lens.. in black..

n today.. after staying in bit late for work.. bought some stufff for retreat n fiddled w the camera w my 2 best buds daryl n ambrose.. for a while.. b4 going back.

next post in here prob long time later.. like 1++ week later.. so yeap.. to put my work, worries and things down n turn to god.. =)

yea.. so my bag for 8 days of retreat.. n yes.. im lazy to rotate it.. -_-”’ cya when i get back then!..

*jus peace out*

hey u all.. im not feeling tt good.. coughing and sneezing n all.. sighh.. but den this weekend aint such a bummer. though i muz proclaim loudly tt sitex 2006 sucks big time.

yea.. so aniwae.. my fri wuz definately good. attended my in house QCC convention where i had to present w 2 circles. the result after 2++ mths of work wuz pretty gratifying. 2 gold awards, 1 best overall circle n 1 best newcomer. all for 2 circles.. it’s nice when ya accomplishments finally pay off. after which i met up w my neighbour also one of my close female frens su.. and her classmate. not too bad though i muz admit pastamania pizza at funan sux big time.

sat wuz spent doing admin work w my server’s commitee for our annual retreat. n in e evening met up w darryl n shaatish to vivo city to watch the show flag of our father’s. so so show only.. nothing too special..

aniwae it wuz only sun tt i really felt down under the weather.. wuz sneezing like non stop e whole day.. and my nose wuz so red.. arghh.. + the constant tiredness n the red eye feeling.. after a hot afternoon in practice for christmas mass, went w darryl n scott to go sitex 2006 like the second time. n i hereby conclude the fair totally sux.. it’s like even on the last day the price n freebies still fixed n still suck.

in e end, i go back empty handed as the camera’s there really are nothing much to look at. will still recce ard for a good camera n a good deal at tt..

my upcoming week seems really packed.. gonna b super bz w the prep for retreat n all. but looking forward to pack up n juz go n do wad im supposed to do.. n leave my work n the rest of my worries behind.

*jus sneezes*

hi u all.. the weekend is pretty much dry.. but managed to settle it up w a close fren of mine. guess things are back to normal.. i hope.. lol.. aniwae..it’s been pretty bz weekend catching up w my cousin’s and prep work for my church organisation’s annual retreat.

but still the week nv fails to surpise me.. juz today the chinaman from hell starts his nonsense again by emailing the whole world tt i got unfinished work to settle w him (reports on part errors) which made my boss into a huge woo haa tt i muz submit a report to prevent error in the production.. by like thurs.. juz great.. now how do i ensure the production tt human error does not happen?.. like no way in hell if we are all humans.. automate the whole process or prob juz sack me la ok.. wtf lor.. expecting the impossible. improvement to the quality are nv observed. but 1 error report and they make so much noise. -___-”’ the mgt in my coy really sux.

to even deny ppl of their bonus and promotion chances if they dun go for annual convention and dinner and dance.. sounds more like a threat to me.. a place where the CEO paces the floor waiting to catch ppl for doing things they not supposed to do.. going mad in here.. muz b a jap mnc..

when will the grumbler stop complaining and b content w his lot? i really wonder.. although my week is not a total bummer!.. sitex 2006 on thurs where i intend to get a new digicam.. yeahhh.. hopefully the bonus at e end of the yr is able to cover for tt.. wahahaha… looking fwd to meet my poly frens in e week and chill out in the weekend. sighh.. rest.. something i really so nid and juz to enjoy the company of frens.

*jus tired*

hey u all.. this week has been a peaceful one.. recently bz with work after the fiasco tt happened w my net usage.. since 2 mths ago, been involved w 2 QCC circles.. of which i did 2 presentations in the semi’s of my inter-coy competition.. n now preparing the 2 presentations for the finals.. it’s pretty amazing how much work goes into 10 mites of presentation.. for 2 circles some more.. tired out.. my boss prob knows i’m too free at work.. lol.. so prob he is pilling shit on me.. so i cant play too much during work.. darn!

yeap.. so tt kinda sums up my week.. been meeting w all the frens tt kept me alive from when i wuz a kid till now.. all my church khaki’s.. my brothers.. n my best bud’s.. coz all may fail but i know i got a good lot of ppl whom i know dun put u down or shut u away..

with tt.. i bid u all gdnite.. =)

*jus @ peace*

today im demoralised. work’s been so so nowadays and there is a certain line i tread on gingerly and lightly on. aniwae.. had a bad disappointment when some abrupt plan made my fri v much despressing. it’s so obvious tt ppl are avoiding you.. it’s makes u seem like the plague tt is infecting the core of themselves and all u wanted to do iz enjoy their company. too long in the web of lies and deceit im in.. honesty i give out n so much i want it dished back.. but aniwae.. kudos to my air force fren i happen to meet up today so last min which made my lonely fri a less lonely 1.. lol.. n a good 1 at tt..

n we went to vivo city for some dinner and a movie.. the bond show which every1 been saying tt the new bond look like an old geezer.. which is so true. but do not let the old geezer fool u!!.. so far this is one of the more interesting bond shows i’ve watched in a long time.. and it is good. casino royale.. dun miss it manzz guys.. good rating from me at least.. n yes.. there are no trailers after the show. so dun bother staying for it.. though the end song is not bad.. daniel craig.. wow..

life without meaning is really meaningless.. life goes on like so n i really wonder wad im doing nowadays.. sighh.. iz it so difficult to achieve and try a simple quest? i really wonder..

my weekend looks pretty empty this week.. prob will try to fill it up myself and find something to do.. but while tt is going on, i juz stop n think n ponder wat goes wrong, why it happens and how it can make me a better person.. =)

*jus lost*