when life dun mean anything at all..
it’s the weekend.. n a long one at that but i dun feel happie of any sort. feel like shit.. but though i came back from my fren’s housewarming.. n thot i could engage in the only relaxing activity in my life at e moment also cannot.
i’m a computer addict and i love to surf n pa game. but then now my net is really pissing e hell outta me.. i cant even play decent game wout me disconnecting. my msn also disconnects, my com has no speakers.. i dun haf a social life.. n ppl think otherwise of me wherever i go.. wat more has life good to offer man? feel like shit.. yes i am shit.. i dc-ed in 5 freaking continuous dota games.. n i feel like i went to hell n back.
work seems to b the only thing i have at e moment. even my recreational activities seems to b on hold or it’s not letting me even relax for a farking bit!.. shit man.. wtf..
if this is a way to test my patience.. well.. i’m cracking up after all this shit tt happens and no major joy to rejoice in my life. tried, tested and juz shattered..juz feel like putting my finger in the air n juz _I_ coz nothing matters amymore to bring hope to me anymore..
all my confidantes and consolants.. where on earth r all of u.. in e end, doomed to banishment, a lonesome existance where only the brave survive and i’m not 1 of them.. rotting hulk of decayed carcass with the agony of the splinters of my coffin and in my dark legacy.. cursed the dammned.. i am the dammned..
*jus _I_*
