Blogging to clear my noggin

hey u all.. it’s a fri morning and i’m juz back from church.. i had it w ppl who say 1 thing but mean another.. dunno y i’m saying this.. but juz a quote from my fren’s blog.. 1st mention not gonna meet ppl for 2 weeks.. then now again miss u here n there.. like wtf lor.. it’s so god dammn it lor.. n i wasted my saliva trying to console u when ya down n out.. fark this man.. cheat my feelings some more..

o well.. no point raving abt ppl who dun give a dammn abt ya advice anyway.. i shall not intervene neither shall care.. work’s a tiring chore day after day n i seriously nid some 1 to cheer me up n pick me up a long day of work!!.. not tt a round of dota can’t solve  which i cant even play at home now.. since my bloody update cant work on my com.. wtf!! life is definately great here..

i dun stab ppl in the back but neither do i lie n i hate ppl who say 1 thing but mean another.. so much for a good fren.. fark.. disappointed.. no comment.. but life still continues.. still got my band of brothers for me if all fails.. sighh..

but then again.. happie good fri!!.. ok.. it’s not happie when it means the death of some1 but still it’s the reason y i believe in wad i believe.. o crapz.. bullshitting again.. fri sat n sun.. wad beholds?

*jus despondent*

and with tt my weekend ends.. tml starts another day n another week.

but 1st.. a low down again today.. got to church like 8am for palm sun which incidentally starts the holy week for catholics which is kinda like the most impt event for us.. this week.. namely.. this sun: palm sun, thurs:maundy thurs, fri: good fri & sat: holy sat… but however the morning procession wuz cancelled due to rain. bummer!

the usual chain of events… practice and after which LAN gaming.. how mundae and routine.. geez..

incidentally after my mind-racking convo yest.. in e end, i also dunno wat’s going on.. it’s like boiling hot juz 1-2 days ago.. now i feel as chilly as a naked man in the artic freeze.. wondering if it’s an complicated mind trick or i’m juz emo release for ppl.. sighh.. n i did mention tt i hate liars or ppl whom says things but mean another?? i seriously nid some1 to share my mind load w me.. ppl can dump their load on me but can i do likewise?? i seriously wonder..

nvm.. work all e way and forget the present at hand. career 1st ba.. e rest can wait for now..

*jus thinks*

today’s a really weird day.. it all started last nite.. i had a engaging convo with a special fren of mine.. we trashed out situations and as usual being a listening ear.. but then i wonder whether is it wat i wuz doing or providing advice.. when i’m not the ideal material to actually advise..

follow my heart then my brain is my bad trait but then knowing that how wrong it may seem suddenly feels so right.. so in e end i’m only doing wad i feel is right rather than wad i think.. is that a wrong move or mine? i will figure it out myself. but then still wad i think or feel may not b wad ppl want so in e end nobody knows wad is the right thing to do anymore. insecurity sets in and we all start running ard like chickens w their head cut off but then, if we nv even try we will nv find out..

let’s juz c hw the chain of events leads to i guess.. back to usual.. weekend is boring.. church for polishing and no practice after which leading to a dota session.. i really need to lighten my life a bit.. it’s so freaking routine and boring. some 1!! juz come n deliver me out of this boring place and whisk me away to a fantasy land tt nv sleeps..

*jus ponders*

hey u all.. since i started work n all.. been trying to b so familiar w my company’s drafting software which is not easy to do and i’m been scratching n pulling hair abt recently.. work is not gonna b easy.. but who says anything is?

slogged my day over A drawing.. yes.. u did not hear wrong.. A drawing at e end of it all, i did not even complete coz i screwed up the model and rendering and i had to redo it.. CURSES!!..

can’t sit too long over a screen.. mind tends to wonder and u juz go bonkers. but i still can pa game for hours and blog on n on.. hahaha.. the irony of life i guess? or it’s payback time for me? wahahaha..

aniwae.. the com there is like better than mine at home.. ok ok.. understatement.. anything’s better than my com.. wahahaha.. net’s a breeze there and i already got my company email set up and all..

weekend’s coming.. n i shld get my 1st n only paycheck from border’s!.. retail therapy?? hmm.. i wonder.. but muz go out n relax.. hopefully it happens tml.. and hoping n wishing for loads of other stuff to come..

*jus shack*

it’s 7am n i’m blogging. yesterday juz went for penitential service in our church and god got a real funny way to test if we r nice people.. lol.. coz i could not help but curse and swear as i tried futilely to surf net yesterday while my modem keeps flickering in and out.

today marks my 3rd day in yokogawa and i think i’m making good time. spent the 2 days being familiar w the drafting and tooling software which i’m starting to get the hang of. my dept consists of 4 other guys including my supervisor who seems like a nice person for now. hahaha.. but the place seriously lacks the yin and production floor has only "yin" above the age of 30.. -_-” sadness.. in case ya wondering wad "yin" is.. juz think yin n yang as male n female composites of the human body. nuff said..

training for me has also been planned and hopefully i rise to the challenge and do wad is required of me. but if the other people can do it.. y can’t i? GANBETTE!!.. as for my other pursuits i guess i juz gotta let fate take it’s course.. LOL.. as i dun think i can find much opportunities in where i work..

*jus strives*

hey hey hey.. it’s the weekend n it’s a boring one for me i guess..

today wuz a laze at home day.. slept abt 8 hrs in the morning and slept again after lunch.. for 5+ hrs.. which brings my grand total to abt.. 13 glourious hours of unadulterated sleep..

but then again, who am i bluffing? nothing to do then compells me to sleep like a log and it’s a really a boring day today.. sighh..

my weekend prelude wuz alright.. thurs wuz my official last day at border’s.. when i left.. felt bit sad of the lack of niceties from ppl but what the heck.. it’s time to move on. though some of them were pretty decent even though i dun know them that well..

fri wuz a ok day.. went to do my pre-medical check up and after that net up w my ole sec sch fren justin wee.. billy bomber’s lunch due to a sweet coupon from him. and lazed our asses from city to punggol and to bishan..

skipped church pract.. but then i could not possibly go pract in sandals.. not too good for myself.. hahaha.. ok ok.. i’m finding excuses for myself. but wad e hell.. esp during lent.. i’m a sinner.. nooo…

tml is a full church day as i go meetin and serving mass in the evening.. make up for wad i did wrong on fri? haha.. nah… religious obligations.. LOL..

ok.. enough of my crapsz.. cya another time..

*jus sianzz*