superficiality.. is it that impt to look good?!?!.. sighh
it’s like 12am and i’m not asleep yet!.. not that u nv c me online at 12 b4.. but i’m waking at 4.45am tml.. and it’s a killer week since my body is still not used to waking up so early..
mebbe i’m being paranoid again but it seems that people only look at me thru tainted eyes. so i dun dress to kill at work and my hair is not dyed and look like a punk rocker.. but sometimes it’s so difficult to maintain convo’s w some ppl there as either they go in their own world and lingo and treat u as transparent..
that is how the world works i guess.. u may think my mannerism is different or i’m annoying.. but in the end, all i want to is to fit in and it seems like a daunting task w this sort.. testing me i guess?? i shall not fall.. even though i’m alone..
another problem also w me… my financial status is seriously going downhill.. my bank statement is dropping below 200 bucks!.. i dunno how fast it dropped le.. but i’m guessing that the food in orchard is really taking it’s toll here.. so X!!
sighh.. 3 more weeks to payday.. can i last till then?? juz gotta wait n c..
*jus complains*
