Blogging to clear my noggin

time flies by juz too fast.. tml is my last n final day at border’s.. the past few days wuz quiet but i now know the sellers more in these past few days more than the past weeks combined.. but a bit too late to know them better as i leave this joint tml.. let’s juz c how it goes.. if fate wills it i guess..

me up to my own devices at work.. talking to ppl and all.. finally found out i got a knack in sorting out the books in the carts fast.. but not that they can capitalize on that now since i’m less than 24 hrs from my departure from there. though short a stay, learnt some valuable lessons in here to apply in a new working environment.

thanks border’s for all the experiences learnt.. to the people there.. good or bad.. if i cya again.. n kudos.. hello to a new place to learn all over.. to start afresh and do the right thing all over again..

*jus reflects*

my weekend wuz not too bad.. watched free movie on the 25th of april which wuz like on fri coz the re-opening of cathay picturehouse.. district 13 by luc besson. great show abt action and a sport called free vaulting which is like jumping down buildings and all and stuff like that..

sat also nothing much.. went out w my fren su  which i haf not seen in some time.. and after tht w my best bud’s daryl n ambrose.. of cos my sun is reserved for church frens..

mon begins my countdown to the end of the part time which is border’s.. mixed feelings come into play when i leave but still i’m happie to b outta there coz i’m moving on into the next step. a leap into my career? i hope..

*jus looks ahead*

hey u all.. cant help but say that finally i got a perm job. i received a call from the recruitment company that i got accepted into a company.. which is the jap mnc i had an interview with on last thurs.

which also means i tendered my resignation w border’s today.. but given 1 week notice i would leave next thurs. haf not told much ppl.. but after this blog.. it’s a mass broadcast!.. but working in border’s.. not too sad i’m leaving but still learnt some stuff from there..

bye to border’s and hi to yokogawa!.. hopefully this is a good step for my career. a bit sad tht i did not make much frens from border’s n wish to know more. but still..

work’s been peaceful so far.. juz as when i’m getting to know more booksellers and the shelvers seem better.. i going out of here.. but i know i cant stay long in border’s.. as it’s not a place for advancement..

tml is a rush day lo.. gotta sign contracts all over.. and meeting my frens later.. no work tml!!.. n it’s my 200th post!.. i posted 200 times and irritated u all w 200 email replies.. hahaha.. more to come.. cya peeps..

*jus relieved*

thanks to everything.. my mom was discharged on fri.. muz take care of her more often i guess.. sighh.. weak condition and all.. not good but at least she is out of that stupid hospital.

sat i went out w my frens in the evening.. i muz b obessed w V for vendetta.. coz i watched it again w ambrose and daryl.. but before that, went to daryl’s place to burn dvd for my colleague.. i may not b on talking terms but i still nid to fulfill wad i promised her to do..

out till like 4am.. n woke up like again 10am coz for church.. church e whole afternoon and LAN in the evening.

seems like everything is disappointing me.. even alummi band which i’m supposed to perform i’m not going to perform and haf no intention to anymore.. since the attitude of the performance seems to tick me off and i dun feel the pride performing for them.. sighh.. when will i play my clarinet/bass clarinet again?? .. juz gotta c how

another weekend gone.. another week at work.. how will it fare? will i get my perm job? juz gotta wait n c.. sighh.. but on a brighter note. my church fren jerry is joining border’s as a perm bookseller.. at least no frens i still can meet up w a close fren after work..

*jus tired*

today is a day where the murky water mixes and gets cloudy cos i do not know wad lies ahead. the paths of career, friends and activities branch out and intersect and goes juz haywire like a maze and i dunno what to do or where to go.

work is quiet and of solitude as i wrapped books away in my loneliness except for talking to a few booksellers. got to know 2 ppl who were former st pat’s boys.. nice guys.. but 1st impression and lasting impression are very different things as demonstrated these past few days.

after work without much ado i went for an interview w yokogawa for the position of production assistant. as with all my interviews it went smoothly but then whether i get it is another thing and also there is a 3 mth probation. but the job scope seemed challenging and interesting.. assistant engineer position where i’m needed to draw n convert drawings to CNC formats and going down to the maintence assembly to test products and handle projects..

i ended my day w a show called V for vendetta. it’s abt a guy who goes against the govt that is corrupt and also to avenge a wrong which was done onto him. wow!.. good show!!.. recommended to all who appreciates good english and wit and action.. n natalie portman is so independent in this show.. not like her padame in star wars.. with her gi hair.. lol!

really can think along the lines of this show.. what 1 idea can change the world and u may kill a person but ideas cant b got rid of by juz killing and stomping it down.. real uplifting show to wad is going on w me now. stirs the radical in all of us.. thanks to this show and of cos my fren jerry who went w me to watch it. i felt a wee bit better as i’m more distracted..

tml i’m going back to TTSH to see mom. i hope she discharges tml.. nothing planned tml.. mom’s the word tml.. since i did not go down today since the interview ended after visting hrs..

hope my perm seeking ends soon.. n to my mom.. i wanna cya at home tml.. tc and rest well.

*jus sighhs*

i’m back from the hospital. yea u all heard me right..

mom had food poisoning last night which triggered her relaspe in the morning. for all those readers who are new, i dun wanna go into the detail abt my mom’s condition.. she’s been in n out of tan tock seng so often.. but this is the 1st time she’s in it for the year..

as it was, i wuz really in a low mood mulling over the events happened abt me and all at work.. being quiet and all reflecting whether it’s my personality or wad could i have did n y.. but then again.. i shall not brood over it too much n juz do wad i’m supposed to do.

bumped into su after work on the way to hospital and had a chat w her b4 i went down. funny how life is so fantastic for her n how mine is slowly rolling downhill nowadays.. o well.. juz grit my teeth and carry on i guess..

in hospital at 1700 when i got down to fussing over my mom.. the pain she is in.. the blood loss from sampling.. dunno how many times i’m gonna c this dreadful place where syringes and tubes rule the scenery. yet it’s like the back of my hand, where the makan places and the toliets and the wards.. from A-C class.. we have seen it all.

yet in the process, life is so fragile when life takes such a turn over a simple case of a bad tummy gone wrong.. complications and all n my mom is not of the best of health. yet in where i am, i’m losing my mind over trivial matters and getting cranky and different from wad i usually am.

in e end nothing is forever.. friends may come and go.. though i need them so.. but still my family holds me closer to home more than anything else.. n i gotta buck up to work harder n get a proper job and in e end contribute so tt my mom will not stress out too much. sighh..

on e bright side.. i’m going for an interview tml!.. i need a job.. will i get it?? i hope so.. i need to start a career not lag behind too much also.

*jus prays*

in e end of my flaming blog abt work, my colleagues were nice enough to reply to me in a diplomatic way..

in e end i come to realise from my colleagues is that..

1> being too nice is not nice.. coz i come to b put across as being to eager to please. i wonder with my poly frens if i seem like that sort.

2>apparently i’m crossing the line abt personal space at work and my colleagues are getting ticked abt it..

3> in e haste to get the point across, i’ve always being cutting in people’s convo and that is a definate no no..

nowadays my blog is really a good way to invoke reaction. mebbe i’m tryin to b nice.. too fast and ppl tend to take it as i’m eager to please.. justin must really learn to b patient abt these kinda things. even told to a point that i wuz told to grow up? oww.. reality hurts.. i’m not a kid.. but i’m a bad learner.. always got something to learn from.. sorrie to the guys for telling them abt their hair n all.. but then in e end i’m always fumbling up and all.. arghh!!.. wad e hell is happening!!.. i can advise my frens and all but w this bunch which are my colleagues now.. i’m doing all the things i’m not supposed to do. am i usually like that?? aiyoh!!… i’m nt like that!!.. o man!!.. i’m seriously whacked out.. i wonder if this being a temp job gotta do w all the mess i created here.. coz in e hurry to leave a good impression b4 i go get a perm.. i’m been messing up seriously? o well.. juz work on and work on it.. look back more on my blog to learn more, and blog more to find out more..

*jus learns*

it’s like 12am and i’m not asleep yet!.. not that u nv c me online at 12 b4.. but i’m waking at 4.45am tml.. and it’s a killer week since my body is still not used to waking up so early..

mebbe i’m being paranoid again but it seems that people only look at me thru tainted eyes. so i dun dress to kill at work and my hair is not dyed and look like a punk rocker.. but sometimes it’s so difficult to maintain convo’s w some ppl there as either they go in their own world and lingo and treat u as transparent..

that is how the world works i guess.. u may think my mannerism is different or i’m annoying.. but in the end, all i want to is to fit in and it seems like a daunting task w this sort.. testing me i guess?? i shall not fall.. even though i’m alone..

another problem also w me… my financial status is seriously going downhill.. my bank statement is dropping below 200 bucks!.. i dunno how fast it dropped le.. but i’m guessing that the food in orchard is really taking it’s toll here.. so X!!

sighh.. 3 more weeks to payday.. can i last till then?? juz gotta wait n c..

*jus complains*

i woke up so early today even though it wuz a weekend.. usually i laze in to abt 12++.. but today i wuz at kranji mrt like 10am.. arghh!!!.. coz i wuz supposed to meet my colleagues from border’s to go JB.. hee hee

best start of the day is when i wore red to go there when they had a white theme for today and all wore white tee’s but me.. LOL… miscom n i ended up looking like the top part of sg flag..

well.. we crapped alot.. ate alot.. lunch wuz a buffet at some hotel near holiday plaza in JB. tt wud add up to abt.. 40+MYR.. which sing is like 20++.. not too bad.. after that we went shopping!!… and the haul catch for a day wuz not bad. considering that i only brought like 100 sing to spend and eat.. i got back home with 17++MYR which is like.. 7? sing dollars?.. okok.. bought a pair of shoes and 2 t-shirts.. and the dinner.. which wuz like.. a japanese GIANT set.. called sushiking combo or something like that which wuz like MYR29.90.. abt 20++sing..

kick ass dinner man.. got unagi,kakiage,soba,sashimi,tamago,2 fish; 1 fried n 1 grilled.. and top it off a cultred drink.. yea. yakult.. hahaha.. ate until so bloody bloated.. but it’s good food.. dammn.. so in e end.. i ended my day on a happie note as i ate my fill and shopped on a budget and left happie.. if only more good things will come my way from now on.. sighh.. o well..

cheers folks!!

*jus woot!*

my dinner.. yumm!!

it seems like this week is the it fair.. n i juz got back the second time w my sis.. bought myself a 100Gb external hard drive for 99 bucks.. but then my sis paid for me 1st.. i.o.u her 1st lor.. she’s sharing though.. wahahaha..

aniwae.. work got 1 step funkier with the arrival of a new shelver on weds.. another fren another anime junkie. kewl.. not that i worked there long but another newbie to share the workload.. lol.. coz next week’s starting at 6am!!

o well.. tml is going to JB w the shelvers… hope it turns out well.. hee hee.. a bit sedated after watching date movie w my best bud ambrose.. c how my life turns out i guess..

*jus anticipates*