Blogging to clear my noggin

hello u all.. aniwae.. today is quite a unique day.. coz my poly "buddy" hanni came back from aus.. n i met up w her with my cousin darren who also happens to know her in aus… like how kewl is that..

aniwae, nowadays waiting at home n going out w different frens.. seeing the close frens around me drifting slowly into the background as they get back into their own stuff n all.. n frens coming back into my life as they return from overseas.

people has been asking me what happened to induce evil in me.. as my nick on msn would say "y shld i be so nice when being nice gets you being taken advantage of.. join the dark side.." juz feeling cynical for a change.. n now feeling bit sian.. coz a fren of mine whom i tot is close to me is slowly drifting away from my life… sighh.. when all the things did n done for em.. o well part n parcel of life i guess.. it kinda sux being devalued n when u tot tht ya importance as a fren is being recognised. tt is y.. not point in being so nice sometimes..

juz gotta c how things goes w this person i guess??.. n prob can also go out more w others.. e best way out is still to get my job n dun worrie so much n at e same time get to know more ppl!!!… arghhh!!.. i hate doing nothing.. so bloody unconstructive.. n a massive load on my mind when i’m going nuts over nothing..or abt nothing..

*jus panicks*

helloz folks.. its like day 5 of cny.. n the mood is long gone le.. well.. at least i made enough to tide me over the mth of feb as i continue my wait for the elusive job.

it seems that this feb or the 14th i’m doomed to loneliness as i haf no one special to go or turn to in the mth of sickly love smells n the couple-hood.. hopefully some form of entertainment come soon or i’d probably juz go bonkers sitting out the long wait.. wil this year b another gruesome, tiring , lonesome wait for something good or some1 nice to drop by? i seriously wonder. but nevertheless no point harping on it as other than that aspect, my life shld b good as i haf secured a job n i got loads of goon frens to go out n fall back on if i’m doomed again to singlehood this year.

been out these past few days.. had a tan by the pool, had a game of pool.. aniwae que sera sera.. wadeva will b will b as i gear up for work soon i hope.. n juz b crazy w my frens.. who n what eva u may b!.. wahahaha…

*jus lonesome*