30/4: slacked at home til late afternoon. went out w my gd fren ambrose for some feasting of food + movie: Sahara then supper… as usual.. *drools* @ bedok for some carrot cake,mutton soup, sugar cane drinks n ah bo ling… hehehe… nevertheless a sat saved.. w 1 of my cls fren since pri sch..*phew*
hopefully e rest of e weekend is betta. =)
*jus peace out*
29th apr 2004- went to work.. did e usual .. see my colleagues prepare themselves for a v fun long weekend.. i trudge home.. even how early i went back.. also lppl do nothing at home.. *sighh*
totally no motivating factor to do anything.. no purpose in life to excel, no purpose to enjoy my long weekend.. always hopelessly depending on last min outing to "spice" up your life.. hmmm.. does tt sound familiar??
well.. b4 i start to sound like some despo bloke.. *almost there* my only solace in my computer games also losing it’s interest when ya always getting creamed 80% of the time.. *disgusts*
"how i hope for something to come ard n make the life better.."
*jus back to reality = boredom at it’s max*
nothing much from today. however i spent like ½ an hr juz t debug my com n fix this shitty com.. kaozzz.. pop ups keep coming up when i’m playing my games.. n the connection lagss.. arghh!! yet i’m so bound by this box .. this white box w a screen tt we r so dependent on. yet juz barely like a deacade ago, this was juz so unheard of… *sighh*
"something so troublesome n always disturbs but yet so needed to fill in the boredom in my life now"
*jus so pek chek*
as i keep blogging daily religiously into my "online" diary.. i start to reflect on e day i did n whether i am happie w it..
today, back to work.. slacked awhile… back at home.. after tt.. yep.. my day pretty much finished.. at home kua tv n play dota n td..
*sighh* my life is starting to look dreary n v boring.. esp at this trying point in time.. where ns is a long winding path tt nv ends.. n not a soul to confide.. wonders if this blog of mine is a online refuge to store my memories or as my header says bloggin my thoughts to clear my alreddi crammed brain.
o well… *snaps back to reality* i guess we juz need some1 to tok to.. if all fails.. www.blogspot.com or friendsterblog.com…
"in a place where no1 hears you out n u so need a listening ear to listen to, you so wish for some1 beside you to hear ya sorrows n hold ya hand n hug you tight n whisper in your ear tt everything is all alright."
*jus reflects*
hihi to all… hehehe.. back from my sianz guard duty.. back o lonely self at home again.. aniwae.. decided to disturb a fren of mine whom i’m supposed to b close to but due to "exams", i haf not heard a word from tt person.. sighh… is tt wad a cls fren suppose to do? howeva, in a situation tt is morally wrong, but yet u prefer to do it… wad would ya do?? *sighh*
"in a world which is so complicated, knowin tt ppl use u for emotional oubursts n solace but throws u aside when ok.. would u still stick by ya fren knowin tt it’s not correct, or juz for the company n solace?"
our father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come,thy will b done on earth as it is in heaven, give us today thy daily bread, forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trepass against us, do not bring to tempation but deliver us from evil. + amen +
*jus confused*
arghh i’m bored!!! aniwae.. a booster to end e boredom.. last nite, my gd fren am passed me a full set of battle chest for free to play bnet.. so, since 8am this morning.. wuz slugging it out w online creeps n heroes.. howeva entertainment comes w a flipside.. as i delude myself w online gamin. i wonder if my social life is gonna b ani better.. as i stay at home n ppl waltz thru my life, i wonder if this gift from a gd fren of mine is a blessing for me to cure my boredom or a curse to doom my singlehood into eternity..
"as if from a gift from the gods to answer my call of boredom, a beautiful gift box w 2 discs drops from the sky. yet i wonder if this pandora’s box is a box of blessings or a silent gift of self destruction"
go figure.. *sighh* w no calls on my mobile n a probable high chance of stonin at home today.. *continues my massive fragfest* =)
*jus stones out.. electrified*
i realised i’ve been complainin alot abt my guard duty.. =) aniwae.. it’s fri! weekend… howeva wondering how would it b? boring as usual or something good would come out of it?? *wonders* after a long wait at a parade.. scrumptious food.. yum yum.. soft shell crab.. laksa.. black pepper beef.. oodles of noodles.. change of guard duty?? my weekends wuz burnt coz of it.. howeva due to some changes, i’ve swapped guard duty w another fren of mine.. so.. my weekends ain’t burnt anymore!! yeahzz.. pros n cons though.. though a short time gain, the team i used to work w is no more.. *sighh* hopefully this team i’m workin w is good.. hehehe..
"life is like a rollercoaster.. when i thot i wuz on the slope of no return, a slight slope up brightens ya spirit for a while n lightens ya day n i ride on the joy up fearing the dreaded plunge below next."
*jus at peace* juz wishes it lasts longer n gets better.. =)
hi ya all… after a boring guard off on 20th april.. back to work..
anyway today wuz a min flying day but there wuz prep work for e COC parade. speaking of tt parade, my body still aches from tt.. for all those who aint military inclined, COC stands for change of command.. in which is my sqn Commanding Officer.. in RSAF which seldom does such military regime.. It’s hilarious manz.. 1st thing to c fat officers tryin to sound commanding n at e same time trying to impress their future boss sitting by the podium.. hahaha.. then we have some scary people tryin to whip unfit, untrained technicians into drill proficient ppl in like 2 hrs.. namely our infamous Regimental Sgt Major… hehehe.. ok ok.. too much info.. *bores* e most impt thing is my legs seem so aching manzz.. after all tht marching and stuff.. n bangin ya feet w lousy SAF equipped shoes.. *kaoz* today is really an enriching experience for all to c the ugly side of the army n the politics tt follow.. but then, working life ain’t tt different.. o well.. from a hell hole to another.. *grinzzz =)* but i’d take work anyday manzz.. anywhere but here manzz!! where working hrs suxx n the "govt" is crap!!
"from the throbbing of the boots, to the pounding of boots to the ground, from the rhythm of the beat brings along dread n confusion from the people who walks around me, the ache of my leg from the repeated stampin on the ground reminds me of how lame the organisation is n how repeated actions over n over again damage ya brain cells"
*jus shacked out*
hihi to all.. juz back from my 24hr guard duty.. *beat* aniwae, dun wanna bore w details.. i’d cut to the chase.. rmb i wuz told tt i got assigned this duty immediately? yep.. becoz of this duty, the plannin is all reshuffled.. so in may, i prob got 3 weekends.. yep.. 3 weekends doing guard duty… when all my frens finish exams in may.. n r free.. i’m stuck in base doing guard duty… DARNZ…
aniwae, slept at like 12am.. watching newsasia when they announced a new pope from sistine chapel.. woke up to a lifeless 20th may.. finish servicing n go back hm listenin to X Jap.. wish tt something make it better but.. it only gets worse.. hopefully something comes along to make it better.. *prays for divine intervention*
"if life is like a rollercoaster, going up n down.. then i presume i’m on a v big steep declining slope.. when is it going up again?? b4 i spin out n faint all over =)"
*jus dejected*
I HATE LATE MORNINGS!! hahaha.. uneventful day again.. monday blues again..
back in work again.. lazed at home b4 setting out to work, listenin out to Blind G n Iced Earth again on my Micro.. *prob getting deaf soon by e vol i set it to*
nothing eventful to report… A/C servicing.. slacking at work.. e usual..
sianz.. tml guard duty.. some more last min put 1.. n to top it off, tml flying is shit packed.. crap! y cannot thurs.. then i fri off followed by my sat n sun.. *sees my long weekend flying away + cant siam parade.. *
"jus when u thought shit happens n all is bad, things only get worse.."
*jus disappointed*
